Baby 13′s Pregnancy Diary: Week 17


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Another week down and another week closer to the halfway mark.  Knowing that the baby will be delivered by c-section a while earlier than its due date means that I can celebrate reaching the midway milestone sooner than I ordinarily would.

This makes me happy.

Pregnancy isn’t something that I feel I ‘do’ particularly well.  Most of the time I feel that parenting itself isn’t something I do particularly well, but pregnancy, that’s a whole other thing.

Much as I wish I were a woman who glowed radiantly, who grew one firm bump in the right places and no jiggly ones anywhere else, and who merrily sailed through pregnancy declaring it a journey of joyful splendidness, I hate to admit that I’m not.  People assume I must love being pregnant, having opted to experience it so often, but I actually don’t.  Which isn’t to say that I don’t appreciate or revel in the wonderment it brings.  I find it surreal and amazing and marvellous and a whole load of other astonishing adjectives but I don’t really find it enjoyable to actually do.

Headaches are fairly frequent recently, which I suspect is due to me probably not drinking as much as I ought to be.  Drinking water, that is, though at times alcohol may be a welcome substitute if only it were recommended, which of course it isn’t so therefore is not an option.  Tiredness is still prevalent, probably due to the on-going issue of low iron during pregnancy – something I have always suffered from and for which pill popping does nothing as my body doesn’t absorb it.

I make do instead with popcorn.  Salted popcorn buy the big bagful or, if home-popped, big bowlful.  Either way, size matters.  And it needs to be a big amount.  It is my evening treat which is gorged upon daintily nibbled most evenings once the children are tucked up in bed.  I excuse the quantity consumed by reasoning that it is a relatively healthy option with a calorific content far more favourable than popping those crisps you can’t stop.  The salt, I reason, is probably my body’s way of dealing with dehydration.  I really should drink more, I know.

The one major highlight of my week has been detecting the heartbeat with the doppler.  About halfway through the last week I settled down on the bed, arranging my doppler, tissue and gel beside me.  As I pressed the doppler onto my belly and watched as it sank further than I’d have liked, I expressed the anguish I felt directly to it.  I whispering out to it, reminding it how its blancmange-like doughiness was once firm and toned.  ‘I’m not angry,’ I told it, ‘just disappointed.’

Holding my breath as I moved the doppler around in search of the evasive sound I was seeking, it suddenly came.  It was faint at first yet distinct, and its quick and regular whooshing was met with a relieved outward sigh from my mouth.  This, I thought, is what pregnancy is really about.  ‘It’s not about me,’ I told the whooshy-beat, ‘it’s about you.  And that is worth all the belly-dough in the world.’




6 thoughts on “Baby 13′s Pregnancy Diary: Week 17

  1. Seems we have a lot in common Tania, I don’t blossom when pregnant I wilt ! People always look a bit puzzled when I say I don’t enjoy being pregnant presuming because I’ve done it six times I breeze through it, but no I am moody,sick and sooo tired when I’m expecting. Luckily I haven’t had any major problems and a midwife did pay me a compliment last time when I was having a moan when she said ‘but you’re so good at it ‘ !
    But the end result still amazes me and the pain and suffering is forgotten in a heartbeat when the new little person arrives and yes I long to go through it all again….

  2. Lovely post. I dont to pregnancy well either and its nice to hear someone else admit it.

    I cant absorb iron with pills either – but have you tried either spatone or floradix? I have used both with marvelous effects.

  3. Vitamin C helps you absorb iron better and i was told by a nauropath that you shouldn’t have any dairy products 2 hrs either side of taking iron. Maybe this would help?

  4. lovely post, was just wondering why baby was being delivered a while earlier than due date? I’ve had 5 c sections and my baby number 4 was allowed to be delivered 2 weeks early, but when having baby number 5 they insisted that he was born no earlier than a week before due date, despite my concerns and worries about going into labour? really would love to have another despite being 6th c section. Good luck Tania, think you are an amazing mother.

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