Twin Pregnancy Diary – 34 weeks 4 days

I apologise for the lateness of this week’s update.  Remember I told you about sickness in a large family?  Well, I got it.  

Like it hadn’t been enough being hit with one thing after another the last few weeks, I became even more tired and lethargic than normal, or rather what has become “normal” lately, on Friday.  I slept through the weekend and Monday of this week, and the vomiting began on Saturday.  This increased the Braxton Hicks contractions leading to a very restless Sunday night, wondering whether I should call my friend on night labour standby.  

The Braxton Hicks calmed down eventually, or at least enough for me to sleep.  My theory is that if I can sleep through any pains then I’m not in labour.  The following day I was still ill, still dehydrating, and again experiencing strong tightenings.  I rang the triage on the labour ward to be told I would not be seen there as I had a bug.  Fair enough, but what if labour did progress?!  I had visions of Mike having to deliver the twins in the living room.  

Anyway, I’m feeling much better now and the twins are still inside.  I have really had enough now.  The twentieth seems a lifetime away even though it is now only 15 days away.  I truly feel like I am at the final hurdles and I’m finding it difficult to jump them.  My energy levels are so depleted as are my defences.  I’m hoping I don’t get hit with anything else before the babies arrive.  

I know I’m supposed to say how I’m glad the babies are still inside, being cooked as they should be.  

I know I’m supposed to say I’m cherishing these last few weeks and days.

I know I would feel as guilty as hell if they were to be born now and put into special care.

But I can’t help how I feel, and at the moment I feel completely and utterly fed up.  Uncomfortable, knackered and good for nothing and so, so ready for it to be all over.

Twin Pregnancy Diary is available to buy in paperback now.

You can read the rest of our Twin Pregnancy Diary available on Kindle at Amazon.

.